When it Rains, It Pours

Good grief... I know they say the first year is hard, but I didn't realize it would be so hard health wise... and maybe it's just me!

I know when we started daycare it was pretty rough with just getting used to so many new things and all the germs, she had a cough that seemed like forever - but luckily never truly got sick! I've heard of much worse stories so we were pretty lucky and thankful here!

I know they say your body isn't fully back to normal for 1, maybe even up to 2 years... with all of the changes that happened, the hormones, the chemical makeup, etc. which I'm a very impatient person so COME ON let's just get there. I just want my routine back, my body, my life. No I don't mean that in a bad way, but when it rains it pours and has it been pouring on us lately.

From stress headaches, to postpartum anxiety, to a parasite I caught in Mexico, to the breast lump scare, to now the flu, and just being tired at all times... this Mama needs a break, I need my routine of my morning workouts, but I can't get up to workout because I've constantly got something - tired from a waking baby all night, or over did it with events at work, or sick or stressed, or whatever it is I feel like I'm in a constant battle with myself and I know if I could just get that workout in I would be so much better mentally and physically!

Last night Kyle was helping out with groceries and I had Brooklyn and Tucker on the couch - B fell asleep (she's been overly tired, not eating, and totally off schedule which makes this Mama panic) and all of a sudden Tucker started having a seizure, he had had one a few weeks ago as well but it wasn't very bad so we figured it had passed but this one was pretty bad. I called Kyle and he came home and we monitored him. The baby still wasn't waking up and it was well past her bedtime and then I started feeling sick and throwing up :( Meanwhile Tucker continues having multiple seizures, I continue throwing up, and B continues to not eat, sleep a lot, and cough up junk that makes her choke in the night! I mean talk about hot mess express in the Langenberg Household!! 

Anyway - just looking for some reassurance I'm not the only one here feeling like a total shit show, like I can't catch a break and my immune system is just jacked for the next year or two... it's just not me and I don't like it :(  I hate feeling like I'm letting people down or not showing up like I used to. Just give me my workout routine back, someone to shop and cook healthy for our family, do our laundry and dishes, and maintain our life... lol please that's not too much to ask for right? haha I kid I kid!!

Pic of my sweet baby cuddling her Mama before her long nap into dinner time last night - oh my heart, give me all the cuddles!!