8 months PP

Published on 4 August 2023 at 11:21

I really debated posting anything about this because it's pretty private, but I'm here to keep it real right?!

 

I just want to reach anyone else dealing with the same things to know you're not alone... I didn't really know who to talk to or where to turn!

 

A few weeks ago I had finished a Saturday morning workout and went out for a walk on the beautiful trails. My left boob was kind of sore and I shrugged it off as something from working out. The next day was pretty busy, and finally the following day I was like man that's still bothering me. I felt around and found a decent size lump... trying to calm myself down I asked my husband to feel it as well prefacing it with 'hey this feels kinda weird, what do you think? I mean it's no big deal right??' and his immediate response was ummm that's big you need to call the doctor immediately in the morning! 

 

I'm one of those who thinks I'll just wait things out, a doctor's appointment? My schedule is too full, I have too much to do! However, my husband being the husband he is probably asked me about 5 times on the way to and from daycare drop off if I had called to schedule yet so I got in that morning. After having the doctor look it over they recommended a diagnostic mammogram and ultrasound. What?! I thought I had a few more years until the dreaded mammogram appointment, but I guess here we go! 

 

They reassured me that 80-90% of the time it's not the C word, that there are several other things that can cause lumps in your breasts and the fact I just had a baby was also something to consider as your hormones are still so out of whack even though I had stopped breast feeding 6 months ago.

 

It's scary... even knowing there's an 80-90% chance it's not the C word, your mind goes a million miles a minute... I'm a new Mom I need to be here for B, my husband, my family and friends, plus I would NOT look good bald... I got zero sleep leading up to my appointments, I couldn't focus at work or at home, and I didn't know who to talk to... google was NOT my friend. I wish they would talk to you  more about postpartum and all of the changes it does to your body. Even at 8 months postpartum I am not the same as I was pre baby. Nobody tells you these things... 

 

My appointment was intimidating having never even had a regular mammogram and now I have to have a special diagnostic one followed by an ultrasound?! I'm not gonna lie, I've been terrified of a mammogram since I was old enough to  know what one was... squish my boobs onto a big thing?! Yikes no thank you! My nurse was amazing, it didn't hurt at all, and I was scared for nothing. (OK it was a little uncomfortable where my lump was but it wasn't bad!) They of course can't say anything, but she did say wow that's big! So anxiously awaiting ultrasound my mind was also going a million miles a minute. Ultrasound nurse was also nice, took the images and again can't say anything until the doctor is in... can they not say something because they know it's C?! Wouldn't they reassure me I'm good, come on! The thoughts going through your head are crazy... the doc comes in and goes over what the ultrasound shows...a GOLF BALL size NON CANCEROUS cyst!! Thank the Lord!! Not the kind of golf ball I wanted though, good grief!! I refused the drainage procedure and dealt with the pain because I really wanted to enjoy and celebrate in Galena. He was fabulous and educated us on what that means, and said I was good until I'm 40 and has no concerns unless something else pops up and then I need to get in again! 

 

So long story short, check your boobies ladies!! I never once thought it would be me, and randomly had a golf ball size cyst show up overnight... don't shrug off something abnormal with your bodies, they've been through so much and are still going through so much... advocate for yourselves and get the answers you need!!

 

Pic of the cutest cousins in Galena for fun!

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